Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your heart on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things. Colossians 3:1-2
Day 20 | Forty Days With God | Colossians 3: 1-11
So, here I am 58 days after having begun the 40 days with God reading plan and I’m only halfway through. I’ve been tempted many many times to abandon this exercise. In the past, I would have moved on to writing of other things. I’m smiling right now because one of those “light bulbs” just popped on in my mind. I’m not the person I was in the past. I’m a brand new me that I’m still getting to know and I am beginning to realize and appreciate how much progress I’ve made on this journey with Jesus. When I came to Christ I had no clue as to what it meant to live a Christian life. I came with issues and a lot of:
I had zero patience, a quick temper and would curse somebody out in a heartbeat. I expected those qualities to miraculously change. I expected to be filled with peace and love and happy thoughts. That didn’t happen. What did happen was I spent a lot of time torturing myself by living with guilt and condemnation. I wanted so desperately to not be the same person and the harder I tried to think differently, act differently and be a different me, the more it hurt because nothing was changing. I was my same moody, mean, cantankerous self.
My focus was in the wrong place. I was focused on my whats and not on my who. My inability to get rid of the things I wanted to be free of wasn’t news to Christ. I was the only one who didn’t realize I am not supposed to attempt it on my own. I must remind myself to focus above; To remember His grace is sufficient and it is only through the power of His grace that I am able to do any thing.
The whole concept of ‘letting go and letting God’ was difficult for me to grasp at first, and I still struggle with it sometimes, but with each victory I get closer. Hallelujah!